Archive for September, 2004

Now you must give this a try it is most amusing. Give yourself a bit of time because it’s quite addictive and don’t recommend it to someone whilst you’re chatting or you won’t hear from them again!!!

Song Of The Day – Steely Dan ~ My Old School

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Karen made this comment,
That is AWESOME LOL – thanks for sharing
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comment added :: 29th September 2004, 22:40 GMT+01
Rachel made this comment,
hahahaha. i’m not sharing that, i’m keeping it to myself. 🙂
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comment added :: 30th September 2004, 00:58 GMT+01
Mary Blu made this comment,
That was very interesting…Fun too! Thanks!
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comment added :: 1st October 2004, 16:56 GMT+01
Rachel made this comment,
just heard that you were irish, (don’t know why i haven’t heard it myself) and you just went up quite a ways on the “ladder of coolness” (it’s an inside thing, but be proud, mate.) 🙂
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comment added :: 2nd October 2004, 04:30 GMT+01
Tine made this comment,
hehe too funny. Thanks for sharing 🙂
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comment added :: 4th October 2004, 10:30 GMT+01
baracuda made this comment,
That’s probably the first time someone has asked me if I am Cassandra from Only Fools and Horses and I have been in a position to say Yes, for that opportunity alone, I thank you!
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comment added :: 5th October 2004, 14:13 GMT+01
A visitor made this comment,
Interesting, I said I was female, and answered “yes” to everything it asked me, and it got ANGRY at me! It’s guess:
I guess that you are You stupid ass cunt go fuck ur mom from from lick ur moms pussy out! Am I right?

Ouch! And I apologize for the language. Just thought I’d warn you that it can be pissed off!


comment added :: 17th October 2004, 04:58 GMT+01

Here we go, recently I’ve been kind of down, I still am to an extent but it has also made me examine things in my life so as the new Baron morphs into existence certain things have become clearer, things that I need to do. They aren’t in any particular order but I divided them into sections, mainly because I’m anal about things being in the right order!

Domestic Section


1. Learn another language
2. Take my kids to an Ireland Rugby match
3. Fall in love and stay sane at the same time.
4. Get a cat, (which will be called Chekhov, in line with my pet naming convention!)
5. Clearout all the shite that I don’t play with/wear/genuinely intend to fix
6. Write my book, properly.

Travel Section


7. Go to at least one other continent
8. Go to Russia
9. Go to Ireland
10. Go to Vietnam
11. Go to Central America
12. Spend a week on the Isles of Scilly

Silly Section


13. Have photo taken on Abbey Road crossing with 3 other long-haired suited people
14. Have a proper mass-food fight
15. Have an all week-end party
16. Go on a mad booze bender
17. Spend a weekend stoned listening to Rock and watching Easy Rider and shit
18. Sleep out on a beach with someone nice
19. Listen to every Led Zeppelin album in chronological order back to back
20. Go to the Glastonbury Festival
21. Drive either the Staples to Naples or the London to Mongolia Banger rally in a Trabant or a Zil.
22. Have a ride in a Bi-plane (Preferably a red one!)

Health Section

23. Lose 5 stone
24. Do a Scope international bike ride
25. Take up T’ai Chi again
26. Get fit in order to avoid dying at 55.
27. Run the London Marathon
28. Get down to waist 38″ again
29. Start swimming again

Other Stuff


30. Have quite a bit more sex
31. Make a life-long friend
32. Learn to control the lethargy
33. Get more sleep on average
34. Stop the desire to hoarde shit I’ll never really need/use
35. Spend a full 5 days watching a Test Match physically at The Oval….again!
36. Do an MA/MSc in something language/linguistic/political based
37. Learn to play accoustic guitar
38. Try to be a better Father to my kids
39. Keep off the fags (the cigs that is) been nearly 5 months now.
40. Try to talk less and listen more

I don’t see any of these being especially unrealistic, I don’t doubt I may not acheive them all but who knows, they are all achievable. Some of them are things that I wouldn’t want to do alone but would do with others so it may not ever come to pass because of that, I have a knack of failing to find like-minded people to play with. Any volunteers obviously make yourselves known! Other things are more solitary pursuits and they are perhaps the hardest to achieve because there will be no-one but me able to sort them out. And for that I need to get off my arse and do things.

Song Of The Day – Led Zeppelin ~ How Many More Times

Original Comments:

Rachel made this comment,
hey, it worked!!! thanks! 🙂
wow, that is VERY thorough. if you think that you can do all of that, then kudo’s to you! and i don’t think you should necessarily talk less. i’ve come to value your opinion. although listening more could also be helpful.

i have confidence that if you aren’t already, you will be a great father. but, i think you are most likely one already.


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comment added :: 25th September 2004, 01:59 GMT+01
Rina made this comment,
I volunteer! Esp. for the Irish rugby match. And going to Ireland and Russia and learning another language. And every one of the “silly section.” You have put together a marvelous list.
Sadly, I’ve only done a few of these things myself. I play acoustic guitar and have a cat (not named Chekhov — it’s Tigger, and I didn’t name her!)

I’ve to board the next flight out because we’re doing this all before I turn 17! (Just under a month. Unbelievy.)

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comment added :: 25th September 2004, 02:02 GMT+01
Pimme made this comment,
Having that many goals shows that you really want a happy future. I know that you can reach down inside yourself and achieve it!
Never underestimate the power of getting a good night’s sleep. It’s like recharging the batteries.

And yes, life is much more interesting with cats involved! ;^)

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comment added :: 25th September 2004, 04:30 GMT+01
Mary Blu made this comment,
Dog and I miss my cat. 😦
Very impressive and thoughtful list!
The power is within you to accomplish what you desire.
Mind power is where it’s at! hehee and T’ai Chi certainly does help!
I would like to recommend T’ai Chi, early just after sun rise with only nature as a companion. It’s wonderful! You must try it at least once. 🙂
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comment added :: 25th September 2004, 04:43 GMT+01
A visitor made this comment,
Great list, and all eminently achievable. I think I need to recheck my own and see how I’m doing. You may have spawned a reflective revolution, Baron.
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comment added :: 25th September 2004, 04:58 GMT+01
Lynne made this comment,
The New Me volunteers to join you on several of these if you so desire! (Couldn’t possibly elaborate more in so public a place though!) 😉
(Pimme’s right about the sleep, I went to bed at 8pm, got up 12 hrs later and feel LOADS better – ok, so it probably won’t last but what the heck, strike while the iron’s hot!)

Regarding #10, I can provide the beach, I can even put my *nice* head on, but could we please wait until the weather warms up a bit?

L, with excess of caffeine

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comment added :: 25th September 2004, 10:09 GMT+01
protagonist made this comment,
you can do it red baron! if paradox is running a marathon in two weeks, you can too. its good to make a list like this though and hang it up. i should do as much, really. the marathon is on my list, as well as the more sex and lifelong friends and all. hell, maybe i’ll just print out yours and hang it up, but i don’t know how much 5 stone actuallly weighs. i’m a dumb american after all! 🙂

comment added :: 25th September 2004, 18:40 GMT+01
Rina made this comment,
A stone is @ 14 lbs, right? I read that somewhere I think. But I’m awful with conversions, so don’t trust me.
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comment added :: 26th September 2004, 05:08 GMT+01
haywood made this comment,
Capt. Bring Down says,
I cant read the yellow font.

[Redbaron responds – You big berk, highlight the text or something. Wait a mo’ I’ll come and paste it.]

comment added :: 26th September 2004, 09:40 GMT+01
moog made this comment,
i once had a cactus called troffimov!!(cant remember how to spell it)
if you fall in love first, then you will have a life long friend, and someone to be at your side while you are being a great father, and going around the world!get out there and do it my friend, aint no one gonna fall from the sky!!!
i know you want to do all those things, and at least you know what you want to do! think of all those people who have no idea!
lets watch easy rider togeather, its one of my fave films ever!!!!
i gave up smoking over 2 years ago, once you have done about 7 months, its all cool! i had to learn to knit so i had something to do with my hands though!!!!
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[Redbaron responds – I can’t think of a better name than Trofimov for a cactus. As for the love thing, you are quite right and if it happens that way I’ll be a happy Baron.]

comment added :: 26th September 2004, 20:00 GMT+01
A visitor made this comment,
people are crazy about making lists and all those stuff…i wonder why.

[Redbaron responds – Because it procrastinates the time before we actually have to do something!]

comment added :: 27th September 2004, 13:40 GMT+01
A visitor made this comment,
number 31 is silly, since as your twin, i AM your lifelong friend. other than that, i loved your list…
love and hugs.

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[Redbaron responds – Of course I know that you will be around as my Twin but it isn’t perhaps always fair to expect you to always be about, so to have someone else to come off the subs bench when required wouldn’t be a bad idea! Actually this phase in my life interests me because I suspect that in 2 years time at least 95% of the people I speak to now, except at work, will not be speaking to me. If even one person still is, apart from you Sarah hon but you’re family so you don’t have a choice, then I’ll be pleased. I’m not implying any nastiness it’s just people I know seem to drift away after short bursts. Sad really.]

comment added :: 27th September 2004, 16:26 GMT+01
moog made this comment,
will blogs exist in 2 years time though? will we have crazy new internet cyber thingys that float around….or whatever….
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[Redbaron responds – Good point, I suspect they will but all the script kiddies will be writing “gr8 txt 8l095” from their mobile whatevers. There’ll still be some of us text-based people who will of course be regarded as reactionary dinosaurs. When was the last time anyone used a pen to write for more than 5 mins? Last time I tried I held the damn thing so hard I cut off the blood supply in my middle finger!]

comment added :: 27th September 2004, 18:18 GMT+01
A visitor made this comment,
I still like pen and paper, for letters, and I ALWAYS write my poetry longhand. Blogs I compose on the computer.
I would enjoy the irony in becoming a reactionary dinosaur.

Oh, and many thanks for the blog topic. :o)

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comment added :: 27th September 2004, 21:44 GMT+01
A visitor made this comment,
You should manage it all by the time you reach my age. Good luck. 🙂

comment added :: 28th September 2004, 16:46 GMT+01
Karen made this comment,
A very good list, I want to learn French and Spanish properly. I have 2 cats (like the convention comment)
If you do at least half of these you should be proud, I think you will do well *hugs*
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comment added :: 29th September 2004, 22:47 GMT+01
donna made this comment,
Woo hoo i made no 31 come true i have fulfilled my purpose in life now does that mean i can retire. Im saving a seat for ya in the basketweaving room and if you dont behave i will poke you with me stick. And remember what you promised me when we were 75 im limbereing up already hehe. I know a good way to lose weight meet me after bingo i know a few exercises lol
comment added :: 14th December 2006, 01:23 GMT+01

Firstly I ought to say I’ve had a shite day, I mean one of those days where you really should have turned the alarm off and deliberately overslept. It’s been Dental Darwinism and Death and hardly spirit raising stuff. I have consumately failed to come to grips with basic computer programming at work. Being a Mac specialist I naturally assumed that I had a lifetime ‘Get Out of Work Free’ card but it would appear not

Then off to the dentist where all did not go according to plan, firstly they may need to do a byopsy on a part of my mouth that hasn’t healed properly, the word byopsy doesn’t conjure happy thoughts I confess, as if that weren’t enough halfway through a restorative root canal bypass I got some hypochlorite stuck in my throat which burned and made me flinch, the movement caused the matrix band to break off taking the whole side of my tooth with it. This means the most likely result is that I will have to have the tooth extracted. I have the faintest suspicion that it is going to hurt. There was not enough time to extract today so they had to wedge the gum and shit to repair the tooth and that fucking hurt, I’m currently doping up to the eyeballs and it still hurts. I hate teeth they’re bollocks, the sooner natural selection starts sorting out an alternative to teeth the better.

As for Death, apart from the initial thoughts about the byopsy, well he popped into my mind this morning on the way in to work, I’m minding my own business driving up the M1 and I think, what happens after I’m gone eh, after I cease to exist and the world carries on as if I were never here. I know it’s a stupid arguement to have with yourself that’s probably why I have them, see like the fraudster post, I like to think that I may one day be intelligent, truth is I’m not very bright really, I’m a rather nervous individual, I scare easily. I’m not an especially nice person I guess and that’s not fishing for anything, I do have my moments and I mean well but realistically I add little to the planet at this point in time and the fact that I haven’t even lived up to the limited potential I have hardly does me any more credit.

OK no more self-pity, I’ve exorcised that, now for some more bile, I’m in a fucking bad mood, I have also calculated thaat if I move North to be nearer work, I’m not actually going to be better off because the raise in rent and council tax will account for any saving from the travel expenses. So can I justify leaving the kids for that?

Oh and did I mention that it took me an extra 45 mins to get home from Birmingham this evening because some twat decided to close Spaghetti Junction in the fecking rush hour for weeks so now I get to travel the even less scenic route through parts of Brum that make Pittsburgh look picturesque!

Finally my house-mate informs me that he’s around this weekend, bugger, bugger, bugger and he wants ‘to have a tidy up’ if he rearranges the sitting room one more fucking time I swear I’ll bloody swing for him.

Ah Bollocks, I’ve had enough, I’m going to bed or someone’s going to get hurt.

Song Of The Day – Led Zeppelin ~ Since I’ve Been Loving You

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Rina made this comment,
I know you weren’t fishing, but you’re really something else.
I was thinking about death recently. I was in a car and I saw this bus coming at us as we turned in a driveway. Now, I know that there wasn’t really anything to worry about, but I got to thinking “What if…?” Spent he rest of the day moping about, thinking about who I am so far and is it enough? Who would show up to the funeral? Who would tell my blog community I’m dead?

Best of luck with the rest of your tooth work, good thing I didn’t fly in today.

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comment added :: 24th September 2004, 05:46 GMT+01
Lynne made this comment,
(((RB))) Buggerin’ teeth, I’ve got two broken ones and a dentist who can’t see me until nest Friday, so I can empathise.
As for Death, he’s been hanging out here lately too – I can recommend reading Pratchett if you need to see him in a new light. Once you find out he likes curry and cats, he’s a bit less scary really. 😉

Thinking of you,


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comment added :: 24th September 2004, 10:19 GMT+01
A visitor made this comment,
I hope you feel better soon, Baron.
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comment added :: 24th September 2004, 17:09 GMT+01
Mary Blu made this comment,
Sounds to me like you need some self loving and a big hug!

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comment added :: 24th September 2004, 19:41 GMT+01
moog made this comment,
i think about death all the time. i think it is not a good thing to think of death as you are driving, i was doing it as i was driving around a roundabout…i was imagining what would happen if i misjudged it…and i nearly got to find out what would happen….arg!
its a bugger when you get healh problems, as it seems to put things back into perspective…nothing is fun if you are in pain!
im sending you a parcel of hugs, a few smiles, and a six pack of beer!!
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comment added :: 24th September 2004, 20:17 GMT+01
Rachel made this comment,
goddammit, it said that there was a new entry, i got all excited, i thought i’d be the first comment, but it didn’t want to show up, so i’ll have to settle for this until it will.
i hope you feel better soon, red. blog-city just wouldn’t be the same without you!

i HATE it when people clean my house! if you want to clean, dammit, go to your own house and clean that, it took a lot of effort to put the filth exactly where it is now!

i’ve been missing you at the blog, red! when you’re up to it, visit with your usual opinions, it just isn’t the same without you!


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comment added :: 25th September 2004, 01:38 GMT+01
Pimme made this comment,
I like my things where they are at. If I move them, I can see how bright the carpet is under them. Everything else around them has faded. Makes it easier to get everything back into alignment once I’m done vacuuming! ;^)
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comment added :: 27th September 2004, 22:53 GMT+01

This could be quite an interesting post because I’m going to examine something that is very much a part of me and if I remove the facade I don’t know anymore what may be behind it. When I say facade that doesn’t really sum it up the things I am going to look at are all anomalies, they are instances where I present something to the outside world that leads people to a simplistic conclusion and I suspect the reason I do this is because of some dichotomy or insecurity.

The first point is nationality: I am Irish. Am I? Seriously tho’ what is my claim to Irishness? I was born in West London, educated in London, I have lived in many places and 3 countries but never Ireland, I have not even been there. I do not currently have a passport and the last passport I held which expired 4 years ago was British. Both my parents were born in England with at least 1 Irish parent. Now it is true that if the Irish were black I would be partially black (my Grandfather was German) and I was indeed brought up with a rather un-English outlook. I cannot state with any surety though that part of my reason for feeling Irish was a need to belong, but not to the mainstream. This theme is something I will expand upon later. I do not hate the British, but I do not feel like them, I do not entirely understand them, but I can blend in with them like a spy. Strangely enough I have considerably less trouble from Irish people when I say that I’m Irish than English people. I don’t know if the latter think it some form of slight against them, that I have rejected them, but they’ll quiz me where was I born, where did I go to school and where are my parents from. When English people find out that I have not been to Ireland this seems to to prove their hypothesis, but I never claim to be from Ireland in the physical sense. An example of this random Geographical anomaly is that if you are born somewhere where you look different you are less likely to be accepted by those who live there or those who don’t. If I claimed to be from China I could say that I was born in Szechuan province but it would not make me look any more Chinese to either those from Szechuan or from anywhere else. I am starting to justify my Irishness again which is not my intention in this paragraph so I’ll stop there on point 1.

The second point is politics: I am on the left, I know this, I answered the political compass quiz truthfully and I did it twice 6 months apart to see whether it was mood based at all, the social/economic score was exactly the same and the libertarian score changed by less than a third of a point. Am I a Communist, well I wear the badge but there are many interpretations of what a Communist is and I am genuinely not well-read enough to discern whether the intricacies of this ideology transcend what I may find in any other ideology. The same indeed goes for Socialism. I speak to many people on the Left and I agree with parts and disagree with others. I am yet to find a political party that I can fully believe in tho’ I am actively looking. I am no working class hero, again I have lived amongst the Working Class, I have lived in grotty council estates in London and lived for 7 years in some of the more deprived areas in the South East. But I have a University education, I went to one of the top 10 schools in the country (altho’ I was very much one of the poor boys there and my fees were subsidised) I will never be one of the Working Class because of the outlook I have and the opportunities I have received. But I will never think like the Middle Class because I believe in the fundamental equality of all human beings.

The third point is accent: I no longer know what my accent is, I’ve been something of a linguistic chameleon, I speak with a reasonably high strata English accent with my parents, more so my Mother than my Father, but this is just the accent I have always had at home, at school I had a heavier London accent, perhaps to stand out, to seem hard, or perhaps that was the accent I felt most comfortable with. At work now it varies and I notice the variants, if I am talking to someone from London it’s a fairly broad South-East London accent, but if the person I’m speaking to is from further North then my accent becomes more neutral. Now I know I am not the only person who does this, many people do and to varying degrees, I had a flatmate some years ago who was very similar to me. It’s natural though for me, I am after all originally a linguist by trade and a good linguist assimilates by mimicry to mask any trace of mother tongue, I simply do this in my mother tongue as well as in foreign languages.

So I guess the principal question is what does this say about me? Well, to my mind and I have thought a lot about this recently, it would appear to suggest that I am as anxious to be a part of a group as anyone else, perhaps more so but for some reason I do not like the mainstream, I do not fit in on any occasion where I have had a chance to be part of the system. So I guess this explains why I am constantly wearing clothes that are a form of semaphore, Irish rugby shirts or t-shirts with cyrillic markings or political messages. It is perhaps a desperate identity search coupled with the need to find my own kind, a kind who may not even exist or if they do are perhaps so dispersed as to not really be a group at all. But if you are out there, here I am, London-Irish Communist? Well it’s as good a tag as I’ve found so far, ask me in 10 years, who knows who or where I’ll be then, probably still searching still flitting from one group to another wanting to belong. So there I am, stripped off my usual armour that I have built up so as not to feel alone. Time will tell how long it will be before I get cold and put it all back on again.

Song Of The Day – James ~ She’s A Star

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Rina made this comment,
All I need to know is you’re Irish and you’re on my team! I wish I was Irish and try to tell myself I am but it’s really so faded, so long ago. *Sigh* I think you’re Irish where it counts — in the heart!
Whatever you are, whatever you claim to be you’re gonna keep rockin’ us out. Check plus on this one.

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comment added :: 21st September 2004, 02:37 GMT+01
A visitor made this comment,
Interesting post Baron. I never thought that you were anything else. 🙂

[Redbaron responds – I am a compulsive liar!]

comment added :: 21st September 2004, 13:51 GMT+01
A visitor made this comment,
well,the first time i read your blog, somehow, somewhere at the back of mind i already have some preconceived notions.not that they’re all correct but don’t you find it amusing? i mean, people you don’t practically know could actually write in full pharagraph who redbaron is…
[Redbaron responds – Or who I want them to think I am muwahahahahaha, I am actually a 5’9″ Scouser who works for Burger King!]

but really, this “stripping off” thing you wrote here was a nice read (at least for me). makes me want to do my own self-analysis too.


[Redbaron responds – You know it makes sense Rayts, stripping off is always a liberating experience!]

comment added :: 21st September 2004, 15:37 GMT+01
A visitor made this comment,
Fantastic post. I knew a Londoner who was 1/2 Irish, 1/2 Sri Lankan, and he felt much the same way. He was British, but not.
I like the idea of your clothing semaphore. The Prince and I found, finally, our geek tribe thanks to a Babylon 5 shirt he was wearing and the sharp eye of fellow gamer geek. Anything that I wear that has words on it is a Rosetta Stone to the person I am.

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comment added :: 21st September 2004, 19:39 GMT+01
haywood made this comment,
great post, that really is something to think about… Who are we all, the nation-state grouping is so simple minded. I remeber when i was a child and just thought how lucky i was to be an American, but what does that even mean? I love my State, Michigan, but there are places in America that I wouldn’t want to be remotely asscosiated with, mainly Texas. Any way cheers to you, great post!

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comment added :: 22nd September 2004, 00:43 GMT+01

Pimme made this comment,
Over here, some heritages are really flaunted,(Italian, Irish, Hispanic), while others are seldom mentioned. Loads of people go by wearing the colors of their ancestral flags, cars have bumperstickers with the same. What makes one group of people so proud to announce their heritage, while others just keep quiet and take it for granted? And why don’t the “underdogs” join in the homage? Maybe they’re just happy to be Americans, regardless of where Grandma and Grandpa came from.
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comment added :: 23rd September 2004, 04:43 GMT+01

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Song Of The Day – Curtis Mayfield ~ Move On Up (the full 8 1/2 minute version)

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Rachel made this comment,
whoah! is it just my computer or is this whole entry in like….code? it looks like you just jammed something on your keyboard. 🙂 but, it could just be my computer. (?)
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comment added :: 18th September 2004, 02:04 GMT+01
MrDan made this comment,
I read all of that but I don’t feel cheated. After all, I was really getting the hang of it by the end! I wish I had better things to do with my time! Hope the toothache clears up.

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comment added :: 18th September 2004, 03:21 GMT+01
Rina made this comment,
Ahaha, I was so proud to have been able to read it. I congratulate my brother for leaking some of his talents to me.
Hope you feel better.

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comment added :: 18th September 2004, 04:25 GMT+01
A visitor made this comment,
1’m f33l1n9 1 817 l057 700.
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comment added :: 18th September 2004, 10:24 GMT+01
A visitor made this comment,
Oh my eyes! My eyes!
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comment added :: 18th September 2004, 19:16 GMT+01
baracuda made this comment,
Are you sure your keyboard is plugged into the right socket? I think it might be broke.
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comment added :: 19th September 2004, 09:12 GMT+01
Rina made this comment,
I’m such a self-appraising little bitch. I love seeing comments that say other people couldn’t read this. It’s awful, esp. because at first I couldn’t either. Then I was glancing over the rest of the page and a couple words caught my eye and … eureka!
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comment added :: 19th September 2004, 09:41 GMT+01
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comment added :: 19th September 2004, 12:06 GMT+01
haywood made this comment,
did you just call me a p4wn j00?
comment added :: 19th September 2004, 21:09 GMT+01
moog made this comment,
a pawn loo???
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comment added :: 20th September 2004, 18:33 GMT+01
Bob Red made this comment,
Ah I think you apple mac is no longer compatible with the PC empire that has taken over the internet. As a result, your blog appears to be corrupted.
Ha Ha!
Nice bit of leet there Mr B… and not one instance of using “teh” my particular fave!!
Hope you feel better soon Matey.
(next time lets try and do the whole thing in ascii… converted to hex!)


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comment added :: 20th September 2004, 20:40 GMT+01

I was going to entitle this blog ‘The Wanderer’ -A glamorous sounding title to be sure but when you look at the comparatives, it is akin to ‘The Journeyman’ or ‘The Rover’ or perhaps only a step by inference from a ‘Jack of all trades’ (and critically ‘Master of none’). The implication is of one who has not yet found his/her niche and crucially is unable to rest until s/he has done so. Can this search for inner peace ever be resolved? Can we find that comfort zone, the place to put down roots and be happy? Or is there something in us that strives for more, always more, never satisfied? Is the world divided into those who have and are reconciled to what life has given them and those who feel they have not enough regardless of the logic of this argument?

Many people can be content with comparatively little (Maybe because they have little choice), and others are disaffected even though they have much. Where is the logic in that, does it come down to person-type? If so does this mean that if you are not able to sit back and be moderately content at what you have done now that you may never be able to do so?

I always thought the striving for the dream was worth something but if you don’t achieve it and you end up with nothing would you look back with the benefit of hindsight and still think it? Of course if you don’t try then you get to live with the what if’s for the rest of your life. It’s a bit of a dilemma. And is there a degree of pre-destiny based on the character type of who you are? Are there those of us who are destined to have wanderlust and never truly be able to settle? Or is it a question of finding the right person and/or the right place? Is this a quest that has an end, is what I’m really trying to say, I mean if I’m to be the Journeyman then ok I think I may be able to come to terms with it but it’ll take time and reflection to let it sink in. I don’t want to think that there’s a chance of it not being so only to find as time goes on it looks increasingly unlikely it would be tough disappointment.

Oh and the reason I decided to go for Der Mann im Pyjamas, well as I got into bed it felt cold and I thought, shit it’s only september, any worse than this and it’ll have to be the pyjamas, that reminded me of a German film I once saw called …. yes you’re ahead of me there. It was about a man who only wanted to go and get a pack of fags which in Germany are available from machines on street corners. Things don’t go according to plan. I remember it being very funny but I don’t know whether this is the rose-tinted view of nostalgia, after all it was a German film and the Germans are not known for there subtle humour! Having said that I looked it up on the net and found a reference here,(The site’s in German and you have to put the film title in the search field) and it did have Otto Sander and Elke Sommer in which is a good sign that I may have been right. Since no-one else has ever seen or heard of the film I guess my questions will go largely unanswered unless I can one day get hold of a copy if such a thing exists. It was that sort of reflection that made my brain start to tick over and give rise to the blog, the substance of which you see above. Typical really, I go to bed early thinking that I may do myself some good and my brain turns around and says “oi what you playing at, I haven’t finished yet’ and proceeds to fill my head with reflective thoughts and such like. I lie in bed in the dark for a while knowing that I have the choice, I can keep the words or I can try to ignore it and try to go to sleep and lose the words, but I am a writer for no other reason than this -that I must keep the words, and I get out of bed and I write and I go to bed at the usual time which is too late… again.

[This is also my 200th entry, not the 200th entry you will have seen it’s true, you may choose to see that as a good thing. I have a few things in draft, some will see the light of day, others may not. But chronologically this is my 200th so bottles of Bolly all round! As a celebration at least I get to go and see my dentist tomorrow!]

Song Of The Day – Zero 7 ~ Somersault

Original Comments:

A visitor made this comment,
Aren’t we all wanderers, though? Does anyone ever arrive? Each new effort just brings us to a new landing on a never-ending staircase. The whole “it’s the journey, not the destination” deal. I think there is an innate human drive to be better than before, a burr under the saddle of the horse of progress. (Oh my god, I’m dying at that stinker of a metaphor.) I also think there’s a human habit of dissatisfaction that can be corrosive. The former is productive, the later not so much.
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comment added :: 15th September 2004, 23:47 GMT+01
Rachel made this comment,
i’m partial to this title. much better than the other options. last night, i was so cold, i was wearing three pairs of pants. if it’s this cold in september, i’m going to DIE come december!
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comment added :: 16th September 2004, 00:59 GMT+01
Pimme made this comment,
I’ve always been a wanderer, always searching for the meaning of my life and my next adventure. I can relate! :^)
We can still sleep with the windows open here. Hehe. ;^)

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comment added :: 16th September 2004, 03:49 GMT+01
A visitor made this comment,
i haven’t been able to figure out whether its better to have a dream in the first place or not. i refuse to admit to anyone, even myself, that i have ANY dreams or aims, because the fear of failure to achieve it is so great.
and i think there are those of us who will be wanderers forever, and perhaps those who will never wander, and those who will be in between and go back and forth…

perhaps we just need a single anchor in life. for some people, its another person, and so they stay or go where that person is, and for others it is a place and thats where they stay and some people are self-sufficient and are their own anchors (may be) and they’re the freest of all and are the wanderers.

actually, ignore me, i’m just talking outta my ass.

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[Redbaron responds – On the contrary Twin of mine, I think your reflections were quite deep.]

comment added :: 16th September 2004, 13:10 GMT+01
Rachel made this comment,
but, on a more serious note, i can relate to what you’re saying. i am quite the wanderer. i am constantly saying that i don’t know what’s keeping me where i am, when i know that i could be better suited else where. i just don’t think there’s anything for me here.
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comment added :: 17th September 2004, 02:55 GMT+01

“Workers of my fatherland, have faith in Chile and her destiny. Others will overcome this grey, sad moment when treason strains to conquer. Go forward, knowing that much more sooner than later, the great avenues will open anew to let pass free people to build a better society.”
Salvadore Allende [Written on the wall at La Moneda Palace, Santiago 11/9/73]

On this day in 1973 many people died, an elected representative, Salvadore Allende was overthrown and a brutal marshall regime under General Augusto Pinochet came to power and began an oppression of some 17 years in Chile. The coup was the culmination of ‘Track II’ a covert operation funded by the United States and co-ordinated by Henry Kissinger which had previously resulted in the assassination of the leader of the armed forces René Schneider after an allegedly bungled kidnap attempt on Oct 22 1970. The coup itself resulted in a death toll of around 3,000 but in the proceeding months some 20,000 people are estimated dead whilst 60,000 were detained and subjected to torture, it is estimated that some 90,000 people ‘disappeared’ in Latin America following US intervention. The US involvement came as a result of the viewpoint that the election of a left-wing government by democratic means constituted a direct threat to America’s interest and therefore gave America the right to defend those interests by any means necessary. Kissinger stated that he saw “no reason that the US should stand by and let a nation ‘go Marxist’ because its people are irresponsible.”

Why was Chile so important to US interests? Well governmental interests it wasn’t other than the fact that Nixon saw the insurgent Central and Southern American people electing potentially difficult left-wing governments which may be prone to Soviet influence etc. etc. Furthermore Chile was of significance to two major US companies namely Pepsi and ITT they had both expressed their alarm to the US at the prospect of industry nationalisation at the hands of the Allende government. Chile was also significant in one other key area -copper.

The ‘black op’ was in the full knowledge of President Nixon who had described Allende as “unacceptable” when he heard of the Chilean election results. $10,000,000 was made available, and instructions were given to recruit ‘the best men’ for the job. Originally it was planned to have a multi-pronged attack based around throttling the economy to weaken the government’s position.

Gen. Schneider was seen as the first obstacle as he was not only the leader of the Chilean armed forces but also had publicly stated that he would defend the will of the Chilean people and made good his principle after the election of Allende. Records show that the US was aware of the significance of the removal of Schneider and Kissinger himself had sanctioned his replacement. [It is worth noting at this point that one of the indictments against war-criminal Kissinger relates to his involvement in the Chilean coup and murder of Schneider.]

After Schneider’s assassination General Augusto Pinochet led the direct assault on the bringing down of the government. On 11th September 1973 he instructed the Chilean Air Force to conduct a full scale bombing attack on the La Moneda palace. The end result was that some 3,00 were killed, Allende committed suicide before he could be captured and assasinated. Allende supporters and suspected left-wing sympathisers were herded into the main Santiago stadium where many were shot and others sent into exile.

No-one has stood trial for the attrocities in Chile, Pinochet wriggled out of responsibility thanks in no small part to his friend Margaret Thatcher and the then home secretary Jack Straw. Henry Kissinger has managed to be something of a ‘Teflon Man’ in avoiding any responsibility for the crimes he has perpetrated, he is wanted to answer charges relating to Chile, Nicaragua, Guatemala, Vietnam, Cambodia, Laos and there are shady dealings to be looked at elsewhere.

Now some people reading this may fool themselves that this is me, a left-winger, coming up with some elaborate conspiracy theorist plot to discredit the US, well take a look, all this is in the public domain, it isn’t even denied anymore, the people on the ground for the US in Chile have come forward, the documented meetings are now declassified and the money that was paid out by the US govt. is known and on the record.

The only parallel I would like to draw with what people may regard as a more familiar 9/11 is that the event I’m talking about involved the deaths of many innocent people and the suppression of democracy by a repressive right-wing regime for many years thereafter – remind you of anything? The United States was involved in both instances, in differing roles perhaps but the aftermath of either instance hardly covers America in glory.

Song Of The Day – U2 ~ Mothers of the Disappeared

Original Comments:

Rachel made this comment,
i’m afraid i wasn’t familiar with what happened in Chili in 1973. You’ve given me enough to make me interested. i’ll have to look up on it.
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comment added :: 12th September 2004, 01:19 GMT+01
A visitor made this comment,
True Baron and I’m so glad that the old witch with the handbag got a mention.

[Redbaron responds – It stuck in my craw to mention her name on my blog but her role in this one deserved a mention and after all she is in my top 3 of people most in need of termination. Between her and Kissinger it almost makes the ‘Logan’s Run’ carousel seem like a good idea!]
comment added :: 13th September 2004, 14:10 GMT+01

Pimme made this comment,
Some people will always be in denial of the facts, even after they are public knowledge. The 9/11 incidents definitely are being handled in similar fashion as the Chilean coup.
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comment added :: 14th September 2004, 04:26 GMT+01

Chileno made this comment,
Allende probably had no idea that the military coup would last for 17-years. Pinochet dramatically transformed the society, Chile remains un-free in many ways, the seeds of self-doubt and brutal consumerism still make it hard for Chile to resemble anything like a “better society”
comment added :: 1st August 2007, 05:22 GMT+01 ::

I haven’t quite got a handle on the blog in draft regarding Sat. night so here’s one I prepared earlier. If in doubt, return to what you know, so back to politics it is. And in line with the honesty thing:

I know I’m going to take some flack for this but I have weighed up the pros and cons and looked at things based on the issues and I have to say that the advice of the Baron is…. Vote Nader.

Sorry, I know this will be a great disappointment to many of you who might expect me to come down into the ‘anyone except Bush’ campaign. Sadly having looked at it I just don’t feel that the difference with Kerry is anything other than wafer-thin and I am tired of tactical non-issue politics. I would like to be able to look at a politicians ideals and moral standpoints as well as his/her record and vote for the person I believe in based on the actual politics. I could not do that in all conscience if I were to be an American currently. The only choice for the politically-minded has to be Ralph Nader because I can look at the things he proposes and see some strain of what I believe in as a left-winger. Kerry, well I can’t see it, he is as establishment as Clinton or Kennedy and we’ve already been there. It changes nothing, and it’s not just the US, Tony Blair’s workning relationship with Bush and the former Spanish premier Aznar both conservatives is better than that with any supposedly left-wing leaders and this is no surprise.

No Nader is not a Communist, I’m not entirely such he’d even cast himself as a dyed-in-the-wool Socialist, but if Macarthy were still around he’d be in deep shit and that’s a good enough recommendation for me! When all the other candidates stack up far to the Right there seems to be only one sensible choice.

I am aware of the charge that to marginalise the Democratic vote will play into Bush’s hands, we have had to face the same arguement in the UK with the formation of Respect which apparently could only play into the Conservatives hands as we split the traditional Labour party vote. What I found tho’ is actually we soaked up a lot of people who felt they could no longer cast their vote for Labour anymore. I mean what is the point in voting for a party you no longer believe in if only because you believe in the other party less? Is that democracy? If so you’re fucking welcome to it, come back Uncle Josef all is forgiven! It may well be if many of the undecided fall into the Nader camp that this will hand the election to Bush, the same was said last time but let’s face facts it was the bullshit electoral college system that did that, coupled with a hefty intervention from the party machinery in Florida.

Come on guys and girls in the US are you really just going to sit there and settle for this Bad or Worse compromise for the next X years, fucking DO something about it.

Song Of The Day – The Kinks ~ Waterloo Sunset

PS I think Michael Moore by pleading with Ralph Nader not to stand has just undermined his own credibility and any good he may have done with Farenheit 9/11, after all it’s easy to criticise the system without actually doing or even advocating doing anything about it.

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Rachel made this comment,
dude, haha, we’ve been for nader for a while now. no worries, mate. and i’m sorry, but as i’ve been saying on my blog, i hate bush, but i’m not that big of a fan of kerry’s either. the only other choice is…nader. what can you do?
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[Redbaron responds – I agree Rachel the best of the situation is the one to go for and it is Nader rather than Kerry.]

comment added :: 7th September 2004, 02:39 GMT+01
Rina made this comment,
I’m am no political genius or even very involved, but I feel I have to disagree. While I completely support Nader and what he stands for, there is no way he’s going to win. He can’t defeat Bush’s vote count and it’s not very likely he’ll defeat Kerry’s either. He’ll most probably just bee taking votes from Kerry like he did from Gore last election. Neither of them will win and we’ll be stuck with Dubya for another four years. I don’t think I can support that.
Rachel’s right, though: what can you do? I say this all now, but it’s not like I can vote this time around. Maybe if I actually was voting I’d be a bit more careful, but for now this is my 2 cents.

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[Redbaron responds – Well I think it’s true he will take votes from Kerry the way he did from Gore but make no mistake this did not lose the election for the Democrats, the nonsensical electoral college system did that coupled with some inane ballot paper practice. The establishment screwed the last election -can you imagine the appeal being quashed the way it was had the Republicans been the ones claiming foul? Is Kerry going to change the system, no, Kerry is the system, he’s just the Good Cop to Bush’s Bad Cop.]

comment added :: 7th September 2004, 18:42 GMT+01
protagonist made this comment,
hi red baron – no no – not in a bad mood. i just made the mistake of not choosing the movie YOU suggested, which i will have to do in the future.
but on this topic, i have to say that i am willing to compromise with Kerry. one needs to be strategic with one’s vote. think of the 980 americans who would today be alive if 600 morons in florida actually read their friggin ballot (or if 1 moron consulted a psychologist like me about the ballot design) and think of the countless Iraqis who would not be dead. I’m not willing to take that risk with Nader. Not this time.

[Redbaron responds – But when do you draw a line in the sand regarding the compromise, how many times must you do it and see no changes before you get pissed off? I guess that time came and went for me already.]

comment added :: 7th September 2004, 19:35 GMT+01
haywood made this comment,
Baron I have to strongly disagree with you, what good would come of voting for Nader? The simple fact is he has no chance of winning, if he recieves a large block of votes it will all but insure a Bush victory, Kerry is not anything special by any means, but are you really saying that it would be the same as 4 more years of the Bush doctrine? I know where you are coming from, but this election is to important to worry about the Kerry centerist to rightward leanings. Bush is a crazed facist and must be removed from office.
Another term would almost certinly alow Bush to apoint a member to the Supreme court setting America back to the age of the Pilgrims.

Vote Kerry Edwards 04′

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[Redbaron responds – Haywood old son I expected you to be one of the main detractors of my point of view on this one but I’m afraid I stand by my decision whilst I understand yours. It is exactly the charge that was levvied at us when Respect was founded that we’d split the Labour vote and let the Tories win, well we thought you can’t make an omlette etc. etc. and the Labour policies were simply old Tory ones anyway. So we took the plunge knowing it would have short term effects. I agree in this case for you the short-term effects could well be very serious and have international fall-out but it seems to me to be the ONLY way to change something in US politics which has been this way for over 50 years I mean come on Kennedy, Johnson, Nixon, Ford, Reagan, Bush Snr, Clinton, Bush Jnr where were the genuine differences in International operations, the CIA role in Central and Southern America, the interventionist tactics etc. etc.? Kerry won’t change dick, I’m sorry mate but he’s an establishment figure and he bats for the home team.]

comment added :: 7th September 2004, 20:21 GMT+01
haywood made this comment,
I feel like I’m chasing a carrot on a string, possibly riding a donkey
Baron, both you and I know that none of this is realivant. Bush, yes or no? I do for all it’s faults still love my country, and I fear for it’s soul and exsistence could possibly be lost with the re-election of bush.

sorry for the holly interpretation, but things are diffrent in the states, god help us all.

CJ Haywood 2020

[Redbaron responds – Haywood mate, I think you have to get this in proportion, I too baulk at the idea of Bush in for another term the same way I did with Reagan, but look at the Reagan era for example, 3 terms of extreme right-wing politics and what happened afterwards, 2 terms of moderate right-wing politics and then back to the extreme. The issue can no longer be Bush yes or no it HAS to be ‘US politics where to now?’ Of course the risks are great and the likelihood is that Bush is going to get in again this time and this will affect the whole world. But I would rather write off this next 4 year term and ensure a genuinely left-wing democratic candidate for next time than have Kerry win now and perpertuate the same centre right/extreme right politics for another decade. Nader has to stand, there has to be a choice if your democratic system is not a farce. At the moment the Bush – Kerry debate is similar to the candidates at an East German election, sure put your cross in for one of them but don’t expect it to change anything. Now with you Haywood you are a self-confessed liberal and if you genuinely agree with Kerry’s politics then that’s fine I have no problem with that but for those who are only going along with it as the most credible alternative to Bush let me tell you that’s what happened here in England and we’ve had 7 years of the alternative and the difference between it and what it preceeded you could write on the back of a postage stamp.]

comment added :: 8th September 2004, 06:33 GMT+01
haywood made this comment,
I again state my case that I am more in line with Ralph Naders stances. But the stakes are to high now, We must defeat Bush. Now I know that we are just playing into this two party b.s. — pick the puppet on left or right, but the one on the right has the intention to bring the world to an end, and fullfill biblical prophesy…. chew on that one.
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[Redbaron responds – Mmm that’s a chewy one it’s like a fruit pastille, but I return to the point that we have been here before Reagan was the same Apocalypse-wielding nutcase and his 2 terms were hardly good for the world, the fact that as a result of the 80s the world hasn’t stopped it happening again proves that something a little more drastic needs to be done. Now I’m all for taking direct action and you guys overthrowing the government after all it’s no skin off my nose I’m not even a democrat. But I can’t see it happening so I’m advocating a more long-term and hopefully ultimately peaceful solution with the Nader vote. Kerry may not bring us to the brink of WWIII but by the same token he will not stop the man who might being elected in 2008 or 2012.]

comment added :: 9th September 2004, 01:46 GMT+01
haywood made this comment,
valid point but easliy refuteable — in the reagan days it was strictly ussr vs. usa, and the outcome of this was mutual assured destruction. Now we have Al queda vs. Bush, and I fear that the terrorists have no fear of apocolypse.
we have one group of fundimentalists vs. another. If we would like to make our way twards peace it would require one of these groups be dismantled, and Al queda is only growing stronger.

Check, Haywood

[Redbaron responds – Well you say that but to be honest the goal of the Islamic fundamentalist is not the apocalypse but the conversion of the infidel to Islam and that would be no good if they’d wiped the whole world out. Individual suicide bombers and such like is a different setup entirely as this is designed to strike at the heart of the enemy. I agree wholeheartedly for peace it would be necessary for the fundamentalist groups to be disbanded, this can only be done if it happens on both sides and with the best will in the world can even the staunchest Kerry supporter see Kerry doing anything about either those on the Muslim side or the Christian side? I think not, the only way to counter balance this would be for a serious resurgence from the Left and that is not going to happen overnight in such a reactionary country as the US. If the present system is allowed to continue there will NEVER be an election that offers a direct left-wing candidate as the alternative to the right-wing establishment figure. A vote for Kerry consigns the US into the sort of right-wing Blairite policy that Britain is in, and we are hardly less threatened by terrorism here than you are. Sorry Haywood but I see mate for me in 2!]

comment added :: 9th September 2004, 02:38 GMT+01
Dave made this comment,
I agree with the Baron. I’m a big believer in democracy and it makes me sick to the stomach to see its most vocal proponents (Mr Bush, Mr Blair etc) undermining it at every opportunity. Until we all get fairer and more democratic electoral systems, all those of us who believe in democracy can do is vote with our hearts and do our best to encourage others to do the same. Any sort of tactical voting takes us further away from true democracy.
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comment added :: 9th September 2004, 14:10 GMT+01
haywood made this comment,
Baron I was not speaking of the goal of the terrorists, only that the Terrorists, unlike the USSR would probably not fear dropping an A-bomb right here in the states.
[Redbaron responds – Weeeeeel, don’t forget terrorists survive a lot on support and donations and such like, such an outwardly agressive move would marginalise much of their support. You may claim 9/11 would be the same but in actual fact the newsworthyness of the event for the terrorists far outweighed anything else they could have done that might have caused many more casualties.]

comment added :: 10th September 2004, 02:31 GMT+01
haywood made this comment,
and one more while I’m at it, Baron you’re older than I, you should know that political change takes time. There will be no revolution, if Bush is re-elected American Democrats will progressively move tward the right in the U.S., and in 2008, we’ll have a even more right-ward leaning canidate.
is that the “check in two” you were looking for?


[Redbaron responds – You ageist cad Haywood I might have known it! I do agree with you in that political change within the framework of the status quo takes time, by its very nature the establishment takes time to adapt and absorb this change so that nothing actually happens. It was in fact an American historian who said “Every Revolution looks impossible, until it happens, then its inevitable.” I’m sure that Czar Nicolas thought the same as most of the US. You are indeed correct on your second point in that if Bush were to be re-elected the Democratic party would continue its shift to the right, this surely only goes to show the redundancy of it as a representative political organ -are all the American people moving consistently further right? If Kerry is elected I do not see that trend reversing, at best it will just stop a while until the next Republican is elected when it’ll start again. You have to break that cycle if anything is to change. It’s your call mate, it’s that or Revolution!]

comment added :: 10th September 2004, 02:41 GMT+01
haywood made this comment,
I ment “mate in two!” Have you seen the Kerry political compass?
comment added :: 10th September 2004, 02:44 GMT+01
Jen Tate made this comment,
I will consider voting for Nader if he shows up on the ballot. Honestly, though, I find that my political views tend to fall in a more status quo range. Take the war, for example. Nader believes the United States should relinquish all government-restructuring tasks in Iraq to the UN (to say nothing of corporate interests). Unfortunately, Bush was onto something when he hinted at the UN’s inability to act without deliberation (the United Nations was not built to function otherwise). If Iraq is left by the wayside while international conferences are held to determine the best course of action, something along the lines of a civil war and totalitarian government will establish itself. Kerry, on the other hand, promotes “finishing the job correctly,” so to speak, which, in my opinion, would be the best course of action. I don’t see one path strengthening our damaged international relations more than the other. In many domestic areas, I can only notice nuances of difference that separate Kerry’s platform from Nader’s. Nader is maybe just a little more vocally liberal. And if it will take partisan compromises on the part of our president to mobilize congress, I think Kerry would be a better man for the job.
[Redbaron responds – Hi Jen thanks for the comment and your opinion, I think you may have to draw a distinction between the idea of ‘getting the job done’ for the good of Iraq (in which case why does all the restructuring have to be done by US firms?) and getting the job done to appease US indutry who are making a killing out of this. Of course the UN is slow to act because it as to represent the interests of far more people, or rather of companies spread out over a wider geographical area. What nobody wishes to do is let the Iraqis sort out who they think would do the best job in restructuring their country, a country which after all they are going to have to live in.

As regards policy, I regard Kerry as being very much with Clinton is his politics in what would 15-20 years ago have been considered ‘moderate republican’ territory. Nader is a social democrat, he is not some rampant left-winger so the democratic deficit is already starting to show. But as the choice out of the 3 Nader is the least wedded to big business and the most likely to want to act for the good of the majority rather than the minority.]

comment added :: 10th September 2004, 17:56 GMT+01
protagonist made this comment,
Yeah, Red Baron, you are right on compromising. You can’t keep on saying well, this time Kerry is okay, but next time someone will be better. This is the thing: Dems should have come up with a better candidate. I don’t like Kerry, he isn’t “of the people.” No one knows what the hell he stands for. I don’t think Nader is the answer, fully, because I just think he is a bit too extreme. But I just kinda wish there was someone good – someone with a bit more charisma than Kerry – because most americans only vote based on the shallowest reasons. Its a shame.
And I need to follow your movie suggestions but I don’t know where they are on your site.

Hope you’re well. I’ll be over in Berlin in Oct…wish I could stop by the good old UK but I have just too much to do here in the U.S.

[Redbaron responds – Movie suggestions are in the gutter under ‘Redbaron reviews’ on the left and down a bit. Enjoy Berlin, I loved it in the old days, a bit of the mystique has gone now but it’s still a good place. If you can wangle a stop over in the UK if only to change flights I’ll buy you a pint!!]

comment added :: 14th September 2004, 00:06 GMT+01
A visitor made this comment,
As an Australian, I know my views are pretty damn peripheral to the US election thing, but If I had to vote, I’d vote for Kerry. Tactical voting is as lame as you guys have made out, but if Nader really represents you, voting for him is pointless-he just won’t get in, so the better Nader does, the better Bush will do. Campaign for preferential voting (in the UK as well) instead – that way you can vote for your favourite and also keep the biggest monster among the major parties out of office. Electoral reform is probably at least as likely as Nader winning, after all, and it would open up the field to more than just three high profile candidates.
Incidentally, I’m not over-familiar with Kerry’s domestic platform, but I see his family involvement in international affairs, and his willingness to testify to congress about the savage madness of Vietnam. This is a man with some real ethical dimension to him, and also a sense of the value of multilateralism. The world needs these qualities in a US leader.
Thanx for taking the time to read this rave.
Sean []

[Redbaron responds – Thank you for taking the time to write the rant Sean. Your points are valid but I feel that the old anyone but Bush arguement has run its course. If the candidate for the anyone but Bush campaign is merely an equyally uncharismatic establishment figure then you aren’t really making major headway away from Bush. Bush himself isn’t the problem it’s all those behind him that are and they will remain were Kerry to get in. Kerry will bring about no sustained change, we already have the example for this -Clinton.]

comment added :: 21st September 2004, 10:09 GMT+01

So why did I write the last post? Simple, the very reason I went away for a bit (Yes, Blue Poppy I understand completely) was that I felt stuck in a situation that whilst I enjoyed was not allowing me to express everything. By everything I mean all of it, the raw stuff, the affairs du coeur and well as du tete(Yes, I know there’s a circumflex but I don’t know where that is on the keyboard and the French is rather pretentious anyway so why make it worse!). I went away because there were things I wasn’t prepared to blog for fear of looking like a fool and I didn’t want to look like that to the people with whom I talk to regularly on this blog. The rest of the blog-divers and such like I really didn’t mind, I’m sure there are enough instances of me looking like a proper Charlie.

So, yesterday tested my resolve that since coming back I would try to be more honest, otherwise what is the point? I mean, would you write a diary and only put nice fluffy things in? Well, ok some people might but my memory is too good to allow me to get away with anything like that and I’m glad because I want to remember it all. This, after all, is how we grow. If it opens me up to criticism then so be it, I’ve had that before, even recently and I can cope with it, many people do not agree with me and many more do not even like me, them’s the breaks, there are others that do and it is important to recognise them and nurture your friends rather than waste time worrying about whether you can change your enemies. Yesterday I felt it important to say what was going on for it will undoubtedly colour the way I am in the coming days/weeks and it is important for any reader to have that context. I was not looking to curry sympathy or for some glib quick fix and so far the 6 comments I received on the blog were made very much with the right frame of mind and they are appreciated as such. If I alienate people with some of the more melancholic rambling then I guess that’s something I have to reconcile, you cannot please all of the people all the time and to be honest it’s enough work pleasing any of the people any of the time. And when all’s said and done my blog isn’t about pleasing people, it’s about the journey that is me, yes there may be an element of my reaching out for accompaniment on that journey but if I have no companion the journey still goes on and I do so alone.

I do think that my postings regarding money over the next few months may shed some light to show people what can happen when you start to get in debt and if I can stop one person from making that mistake then it has been worthwhile. If I can survive it there may well be a modicum of triumphalism in it because at the moment either the tunnel is very long or there is no other end, and who is to say if I see a light it is not going to be a train coming the other way to mow me down! I am trying to make light of it because the 2 extremes are all I know and the alternative is likely to rear its ugly head again in time. Truth is I don’t feel I ever really failed big time before, I had this self-belief that I’d always find the answer, that things would be ok. Not for the first time I begin to wonder if that ideal is well-founded. But perhaps for the first time I genuinely begin to doubt whether I will actually be able to extrapulate myself from this one. There is no doubt that I have got myself into this mess, my cavalier attitude to money and life over the last 20 years has set the foundation, not that I’ve ever really had much money, but what I have had I’ve spent in a carpe diem sort of way. I did try to get a handle on it a while ago but sadly at the time the maths didn’t add up -there simply wasn’t enough coming in to sort what has to go out, it depressed me so I gave it up and stopped looking at the figures. I am perhaps still at heart the classic financial buccaneer, a kind of lower middle class Del Boy who blags his way out of trouble with a bit of the old patter. And I managed it again yesterday, just, but it was too close and I only sorted one thing out and the rest mounts up like an ever increasing wall to climb. I’m tired, I’m tired of having to think up new and inventive ways to dig myself out of a hole, I guess I’ve just reached the time when the ideas pot doesn’t have any ideas in it anymore. Maybe I should consider myself lucky that it lasted this long, or maybe I should just not have become so dependent on being able to get myself out of the shit and started figuring out a way of not getting into the shit in the first place. Any idiot can say wise things, and even i have been known to do so sometimes, but enacting them… that’s still more of an art I haven’t nearly mastered yet.

Song Of The Day – Lloyd Cole & The Commotions ~ Cut Me Down

Original Comments:

MrDan made this comment,
You might alienate some people but the ones who are left will be drawn closer. Quality is more important than quantity when it comes to friendship. I don’t practise what I preach either. I wonder if anyone does?

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comment added :: 4th September 2004, 02:46 GMT+01
haywood made this comment,
Yea your last blog got me thinking, My site has drasticly shifted from it’s original form. it used to be about me and my life, as it was originaly tittled “The life and times” but some how it was transformed into what you see today, I was just talking with marcy, and we were disscusing what would become of my blog after the election, if bush is re-elected i will be blogging from canada as a given, but, i don’t know… I applaud you for your last two entries, carry on my waywerd son!

p.s. sorry if i seemed only self intrested there, I know the axeman well and it resonated.

comment added :: 4th September 2004, 05:05 GMT+01
Lynne made this comment,
(((((RB))))) That’s all, nothing to add. Sometimes we just need a hug.
You let it out mate. I’m just off to do the same.


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comment added :: 5th September 2004, 02:37 GMT+01
A visitor made this comment,
hey twin, you know i’m all for blogging about personal stuff – i think it’s quite therapeutic. i love how we’re fairly anonymous online, yet we can share the most private things.
and damn right, your blog is only about you – not about pleasing people. so write your heart out. i’m definitely around to read it and cheer you on.

and i know it’s not the best of times for you but i have a feeling you’ll be just fine.

love & hugs.

sarah []

comment added :: 5th September 2004, 16:01 GMT+01
Jimmy Sunshine made this comment,
RB I’m not one to let on what goes on in my life, hence a fairly insubstantial blog, all things considered. Therefore, I’d be grateful if you could delete this when you get to work in the morning

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And you really must delete this comment in the morning!
Take care,

comment added :: 6th September 2004, 02:28 GMT+01
Pimme made this comment,
Nobody’s perfect. And, it’s nice to have the support of friends when you’re going through a rough time.
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comment added :: 6th September 2004, 13:31 GMT+01

Things are rolling to some degree of conclusion in many issues and it is going to result in a seismic shift in my circumstances whatever the outcome. It is, however, not proving an easy process and I am starting to feel extremely pressured.

Financially things are not good, I had a letter from the bailiffs today saying that they were going to take my stuff, the c*nts had sent it 2nd class that’s how much dignity you get when you’re in the shit. They wanted to come round Tuesday or Wednesday evening but they didn’t state whether that was the Tuesday or Wednesday coming or the ones just gone, if they actually come out they charge you more money in addition to the £40 “handling fee” that you have to pay for them getting involved in the first place. I was almost inclined to let the fuckers come, after all I’m spending all my time listing shite on ebay and they want to take all my stuff down the local auction house (altho’ I know there isn’t a local auction house) and sell it all off. Problem is I’d probably get al l the shite back and the only things that’d sell would be my G4 and my vinyl collection and I’m sorry but I’ll assault someone before they’re going to get my vinyl.

This has all happened as a result of me having been unable over the summer to pay off some council tax arrears that I’ve got, the council tax here is high and it was a bridge too far when I initially moved out on my own, I kind of sorted it but it hasn’t always been possible to come up with the extra £60 a month. I tried ringing the council who were as much good as a fire extinguisher at Tchernobyl, they refused to do anything and interestingly they had failed to even inform the bailiffs about the £60 I paid at the end of July and the further £60 I paid yesterday. You really are the lowest form of life when in debt, your opinion counts for bollocks because they know that they can just tell you to piss off and you’re the one who’s shafted.

I managed after nearly an hour to sort out a payment plan with the bailiffs which should result in me being financially even more crippled but at least keeping my vinyl! In 5 months time tho’ I can chalk that one off.

And then there’s the Ex who has been in a curious mood since the fireworks a couple of weeks ago, I thought things had straightened to the point where I made myself clear but perhaps not because now she wants a talk and she wants to meet on Saturday night and says she can’t talk to me about it without having a couple of glasses of wine. Oh shit! I have a very nasty feeling about this that it’s going to end in tears, probably hers which means not only am I going to feel like the bastard but I’m going to be accused of making the final decision of walking away when I could have chosen to go back to my family. And what is it she wishes to discuss. The mind boggles and I have a number of theories ranging from the ludicrous to the terrifying but whatever it is I am facing the prospect of Saturday like the condemned man.

Sadly her timing couldn’t be less capricious as due to the financial stress and a belief that I have no other option but to start getting on and living the rest of my life I decided that I have little alternative but to move nearer work. They will pay relocation expenses and I will save around £250 minimum a month not having to drive 120 miles a day. This is not including the reduction in insurance, frequency of service intervals, tyre changes etc. Furthermore it will allow me to better integrate socially into my new(ish) place of work. It would mean basically moving on in all senses, it is not a decision to be taken lightly as my children will undoubtedly suffer and what I have to figure out is by how much and is it worth it in the long-term for the benefits they will get. I had to do this before when I left 2 years ago and it had taken me about 18 months to come to the decision and I do think it was the hardest thing I had done in my life. I am not ashamed to say I wept after I’d put my daughter to bed the night I moved the last of my stuff out.

Song Of The Day – Steppenwolf ~ Pusher

Original Comments:

Rachel made this comment,
wow, red, this came on quick. it sounds like you took the right actions when you realized that something had to be done, and for that, it shows that you’re both mature and unafraid to do what’s right even though it may suck. the fact that you put it on your blog, open for discussion among our blogging community, means your open for suggestions and opinions. i really can’t say anything that you wouldn’t know, or something that you haven’t heard, except that if you want to throw something my way, you know the way to my blog. 🙂
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comment added :: 3rd September 2004, 02:25 GMT+01
Rina made this comment,
I second Rachel’s comment. I know I personally and impressed you would leave this open for people to talk about.
We’re here behind you all the way. I know I’m here to listen even if I haven’t anything helpful or even remotely intelligent to say.

Golden Touch

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comment added :: 3rd September 2004, 04:39 GMT+01
Red Baron made this comment,
Thanks Rach and Rina, I appreciate that, I am writing this as a new comment because that takes the comments to 667 and there have been rather too many 6s knocking around at the moment, my blog was on 10666 this morning and my car on 66666 not long ago. As if I needed anymore portents of doom!
comment added :: 3rd September 2004, 12:06 GMT+01
A visitor made this comment,
That’s some blog Baron. I do feel for you.

comment added :: 3rd September 2004, 17:06 GMT+01
Rina made this comment,
Most people go for the milestones like 250, 500, etc. You hit the evil ones. What can you do, though? It’s a part of you at this point.
Now, I’m going to aim for 666! I just think it’s humourous.

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comment added :: 3rd September 2004, 19:21 GMT+01
A visitor made this comment,
Hope you can sort it out as painlessly as possible for all concerned, Red. Wishing you all the best.
Natalie []

comment added :: 3rd September 2004, 20:50 GMT+01
Katie made this comment,
Worried about you you haven’t been answering the phone- it’s going straight to answerphone and with all this in the air, hoped I could help a little, I’m not only here to rant at you but to be there for you as well. You know where I am. Lots of love.
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comment added :: 3rd September 2004, 22:31 GMT+01